Why Kyary Pamyu Pamyu’s Yume no Hajima Ring Ring ( ゆめのはじまりんりん) Reminds Me of The Old Kaila

Since my computer is not cooperating with me today and I couldn't upload photos from my phone for a major blog update (and I couldn't work on my website commission because of server issues huhuhu LORD HELP)...  I'll just write all my feelings about Kyary's newest music video...

.... and how much it reminded me of my past and all the things that had happened in my life ever since I've moved to Japan.

Before you go and read a very personal entry, please watch the music video below and enjoy the music (with lyrics you can't understand haha).

I think that the music video alone explains it all, with the kawaii visuals included.

If you are a Kyary fan, you might become a little more emotional than usual. *wipes tear*

"Goodbye teacher, my friends~"

All The Feels

According to this entry that Asobi released together with the music video, the video tells us about Kyary's "Encounters and Farewells".

For some reason, I feel that I could relate so much. In order to reach my lifelong dream of making my "mark" and "place" in this world , I had lots of encounters... and same as farewells.

When I was bound to go to Japan after receiving my hard-earned student visa (quite literally for my brother, who worked hard and sponsored my language school) during my last year in my university... I had a lot of people to say goodbye to. Actually, I didn't even have a formal "farewell" party.. because I hate saying goodbyes and I prefer saying "see you later" more. And I thought I would go back again just after a year.. but things and circumstances became different.

Honestly, I did have a pretty comfortable and life back in Manila. I could find a stable job there with my resume. I could even apply for a job in Singapore / wherever if I wanted to. If I wanted to meet my friends, I could just text them anytime. I could have chosen the job offer given to me (from an Advertising firm) right after graduation. But I knew from my heart that I wouldn't be able to reach my wildest dreams if I didn't challenge myself enough.... I wasn't totally prepared for the new journey and opportunity given to me but I took everything as a challenge for me to grow as a person. I said "Yes" to my brother without really knowing what would happen to me. Oh boy.

Sure, living in Japan is undeniably more "comfortable". Third-world problems and first-world problems.. I could write a long list to compare both worlds, haha. But living in Japan has taught me how to be strong, even I had to be "alone" a lot of times. In my language school (Bunka Institute of Language), I was the only Filipino there. I didn't have a lot of friends.. and we're just a small group (hi Dawa, Shouro and Sabrina.. and Lily! Haha) most of the time + my Indonesian bestfriend Leen was a lifesaver. I was having a long distance relationship with my folks and friends (and someone) back home. Homesickness got me but I knew that in also order to help alleviate my family's situation, I had/still have to help out my brother with our small company here. During my loneliest times, I would just go and explore the city and take home lots of ninja-snapped photos.. and this blog filled with kawaii photos (that became a straight online portal for some people for japan's kawaii culture) became my anti-depressant.. sort of. Haha! (It's also funny that I could just tell these stories with a "haha" after, hehehe..)

Living here, it became a challenge for me to go out and introduce myself to meet new people. There was a point in my life when I felt frustrated.. and I realized that it's because I had let myself "stuck" in a place (masked as "comfort zone" hehe). I became envious of my friends back at home who could conveniently see each other when they're sad or happy. So I went out, tried to converse with my funny Nihongo, met amazing people... and sadly, along the way.. because of various differences, I had to say farewell to some and move on with my life. I'm still thankful for these people despite the differences. I guess I wouldn't become this much of a stronger person / woman if it weren't for the troubling times I survived and faced head-on. And my gallstone attack moments (got hospitalized, etc.).. wow. I still cannot forget that morning when I was rushed to a hospital again by an ambulance and I had to go home fast (after taking meds) to put on make-up, wear my outfit.. and go to Harajuku for the first day of shooting as a "Harajuku Reporter" for Kawaii International. Whenever I reminisce the most overwhelming times in my life, I just smile now (and cringe ? haha!)... Hehe :D

As I would say and tell to my friends whenever we have heart-to-heart talks, it's not always rainbows, sunshines and carebears for Kaila... even if I do and sincerely love sharing these cutest photos here / on my fb / eslwehere (and this is also my job so.. hehehe). And it must've been the same case with Kyary-chan (or maybe more difficult!), especially when you're in that kind of competitive industry. This is why I support her a lot because she has inspired many people like me (raise your hands, kawaii fans haha) to be comfortable in your own skin and there is nothing to be ashamed when you're being child-like (not childish, there is big difference, haha!).  I have so much respect for her. It takes a lot of hard work and energy to be where she is right now! I cannot help but feel so proud of her like a real friend. *A wild Kyary fan appears lol*

During my 6-month long vacation in Manila, I had to say goodbye temporarily to my folks and friends again. It's never easy, saying goodbyes even temporarily.. will never be an easy thing to do, especially when you're already enjoying a lot. But one thing is for sure, we'll never go to places we want to..  if we don't decide to step out and seek for new adventures. :)

When people would ask me why.. why I make so much effort on building my current projects (such as Kawaii Philippines, Japan Lover Me). My answer is, I want to make this thing I'm doing as a real job fueled by passion/mission/purpose. I don't want to be away for a long time again from my homeland Philippines.. nor my second home, Japan. I'm aiming Japan to have closer ties with the Philippines through introducing and making the Kawaii culture more accessible to PH. Hopefully, with the efforts my team and I put on.. this grand dream of ours will come true.  :pink:

Only Kyary can make me a reflection paper out of a cute music video, hahaha~

No judging please thank you arigachu,

Kaila <3

 

 

2 thoughts on “Why Kyary Pamyu Pamyu’s Yume no Hajima Ring Ring ( ゆめのはじまりんりん) Reminds Me of The Old Kaila

  1. hi Kaila chan!

    I first discover your blog about 1 year ago and I feel really inspired by your spirit and love for Japan!
    even last year I thought that I will continue my university in Japan because of my admiration to you hehehe
    all I want to say is,
    God bless you and stay strong for all your works/projects!
    as one of your reader, i support you! hehe keep up the amazing job! :)

    xoxo,
    Josephine

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  2. I love how KPP’s newest music video — although not that comprehensive due to the huge language barrier, was still able to give out such a nice message of her journey. It just shows how on’es feelings can be relayed regardless of what language you use :nod:

    I love this blog post! And I’m glad I came back (yehesss) to your blog, being welcomed by this. I know I’ve told you this for soooo many times already but I’m really REALLY proud of you. :heart: I’ve always admired you and number one idol talaga kita hahaha you know naman how your little sister (*cough*me*cough*) isn’t as productive as you can be and I still lack so many things in terms of becoming a better person but do know that as you continue to inspire other people and as you continue to work hard to fulfill your dreams, it makes me strive harder to fulfill my dreams as well. I’m honestly disappointed at some of the things I do but what can I do with them? Shake them off and continue to move forward. :blush3: Just like what you’d do.

    My comment’s becoming so drama-y already ANYWAY :hihihi: Love you, Ate!!! :blushh:

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