Being back in Manila for a short time has made me realize a lot of things. Actually, these thoughts aren’t exactly “realizations” but more of a confirmation about some ideas I have been thinking about during my idle time when I work or whenever I’d catch up with my friends who are also crazy dreamers.
Before moving to Japan, Manila was my comfort zone. As years pass by, Japan became a much more comfortable zone for me. In this place, I was able to achieve a lot of dreams because Japan served as a safe place for me to pursue what I want. Traffic, security, and other third world problems I used to have are not the problems that I’d encounter. Of course, living in Japan has its cons too. I figured that whether you’re in a highly-developed country or not.. you cannot escape any problem. It’s everywhere, hehe. Every country has its unique societal issue and it’s not right to compare two different worlds with different cultures and values. I think I learned how to be a chameleon over the years, haha.
Whenever I’d go back to Manila and I’m on my way home from the airport, I would be welcomed by these poor Filipino streetchildren knocking on the car’s windows while I’m completely engrossed on my iPhone. I cannot deny that there is a nagging feeling that I just can’t fully describe. Manila is still the same country that I left years ago.. (but with heavier traffic conditions… :/). Being able to live in Japan for years / travel in different countries really opened my eyes. How I wish Philippines would improve in some way or the other.
I feel that my Japan life is just a “preparation phase” for me that I must complete in a few years time. I feel like someday, I must go back here in the Philippines and try to change the game as an entrepreneur or a budding businesswoman. As of now, I can’t just go back anytime here because I still have a lot of work obligations left (Japan Lover Me Store and moreee) and if I want to save up money, Japan is the most “logical” option for me. Right now, I’ll just keep these confirmed realizations dear in my heart.