Since it’s the Valentine season, I think that it’s just timely to share some of my thoughts about love.
Why I think that “self-love” is the most important kind of love that we tend to overlook.
And some facts about my crazy standards. : ))
I am no relationship expert and I am just sharing my opinion based on my past experiences that is related with “love”. : )
If I were to give my 20 yr. old self a friendly advice, this is probably what it would be.
Maybe this would come handy for future Kaila too.. so I’m blogging this as a reminder. : ))
I used to think that love should be like what we see in the movies / Korean dramas. I know this is quite embarrassing to reveal… but there, I said it. Haha! I know many can relate. I don’t know who to blame for all of these expectations, haha. Damn these books by Nicholas Sparks & unrealistic Korean drama plots, haha~
So far (lolol I kid), I had one serious relationship. And it was during the most unexpected times in my life.. and with the most unexpected person, hahaha. Even though things didn’t turn out well in the end and we had to part ways , up to this point, I have no regrets. And I’m still glad that we were each other’s firsts.. because I can’t imagine if I got into an abusive or worse commitment instead, huhu… (with all the crap that I’ve encountered in my life, I still feel blessed and lucky haha). At that time, I also felt genuine happiness and it was something that we both wanted anyway. No regrets, just love indeed. : )
When my first love and I broke up, it was during my most confusing times in my life. I often questioned God why.. why that time. I had a health concern, I was struggling with my blogging dream career.. and I was just about to give it up all and return to the “normal” person. Right now.. all I could honestly say with sincerity and zero grudges is that..
Thank you for breaking up with me. It was one of the life-changing events that made me who I am today. Thank you for making me realize that I almost forgot myself… to love myself.