What Has Changed In Me

Hi all,

It’s been getting colder and colder here in Japan and autumn season is just around the corner. For some reason, I am feeling a little more pensive these days… hence, this wordy post.

I think it’s good for me to stop and reflect for a while because life has been pretty fast for me currently. I just finished my work today and I’m listening to some nature sounds outside (it rained today) and this feels like the perfect chance for me to sit down and type away my thoughts.

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I cannot believe that we are already approaching the end of the year and I am still at awe how I’ve managed to survive (still attempting to survive lol) this rocky year for personal growth. It’s not that kind of drastic change like I have turned into a completely new person… but more of realizing that I have improved a lot & getting rid of traits that I had to work on. I just wished for these before but now, everything feels natural to me. To summarize everything, I take care of myself more now compared to years ago.

To be more specific, here are some things that I have noticed that changed in me.

  • I no longer feel the need or urgency to try the newest thing / visit the most talked-about cafe / *insert trending activity* here as soon as possible. I spend most of my free time at home and if I have extra money to unwind outside, then I would give myself some fresh air. In this way, I could save up more money for my business goal. I can also turn down offers / invites now during days I have to be “responsible” (lol).

 

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Missing Philippines

Even if I am comfortably living a first world life here in Japan, I will always miss Philippines.

Oh how I wish that my home is just a jeepney / train ride away. If that is so, I would definitely go back and forth every so often. But alas, I am still dreaming of the day when I can just book anytime I want. Still daydreaming and working everyday on how to make these crazy thoughts inside my head possible.

I will make it possible. ぜったい. 

For now, I’ll just treasure and keep these beloved memories when I was in PH / whenever I’m in Manila.. inside my heart. And of course, I’ll just immortalize these fun moments through this blog. ^^

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Doki doki time. Excited to see my family after more than half a year!

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Had sisig for my first meal in Manila with my parents

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Watching shows with my niece, Riona

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Transformed my brother’s room to my mini working space.

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Chocnut time!

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Back Home For Nanay

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I haven’t told a lot of people about this.

I’ve been here in Manila for quite some time.

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This time, it’s not about a business trip or a long vacation like what I would usually do in the past.

It’s actually because a very dear family member is really sick at the moment. When I found out that her sickness was worsening, I impulsively booked a flight to Manila without much preparations. I think that I had mentioned it before that going home was not part of the plan this 2015 because I wanted to concentrate on the work projects we have for the entire year.. but if a special person / your family needs your companionship, how can you ignore the situation? *sniff* I will never forget the smile and look on her face when I “surprised” her with my presence and haggard self. It’s amazing that with just your mere presence, you can light up someone’s day.

Nanay. We all fondly call her as “Nanay” (which means “Mom” in English) and we treat her like our real grandmother. She is actually our family nanny and all of my siblings and I grew up under her loving care. She cooked for the entire family too. Everything that Nanay made before in her prime years… super delicious, for sure! Oh how I treasure those moments. ;u;

I’ve been here for the past 2-3 weeks already (got lost track of time) and I’ll be going back to Japan soon so that my other cousin can go home too while I take over & help my brother with our work. I can’t wait to book again a flight after saving up enough money in Japan. It really pains me and bothers me a lot that I cannot be here at home for a long time so I could take care of Nanay. 🙁 Honestly, it has been such a whirlwind of emotions recently and I’ve had a lot of sad moments. It’s okay to be not super okay at times, I guess. I am just praying a lot right now for her health. ;_;

Anyway..  I don’t want to finish this blog entry while having a sudden crying fest.. or continue to write about sad things. Yikes!

For now, here are some photos / moments that made me smile and happy during my stay here. : )

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Had a Jollibee date with Anne Kate after my surprise Cosmania visit.

Having a great day with a friend + meeting your kawaii family spontaneously = the best! I temporarily forgot my problems and fears that time.

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Went out the house to refresh. Bought books and read a lot to keep myself from thinking about sad things.

You really have to find and create yourself your own sunshine during a stormy phase / week.

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After Nanay’s hospital check-up, mom gave us a treat. Yay for simple joys such as this sundae from McDonald’s!

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My hyperactive niece Riona really cheered up everyone’s spirits!

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