Missing Philippines

Even if I am comfortably living a first world life here in Japan, I will always miss Philippines.

Oh how I wish that my home is just a jeepney / train ride away. If that is so, I would definitely go back and forth every so often. But alas, I am still dreaming of the day when I can just book anytime I want. Still daydreaming and working everyday on how to make these crazy thoughts inside my head possible.

I will make it possible. ぜったい. 

For now, I’ll just treasure and keep these beloved memories when I was in PH / whenever I’m in Manila.. inside my heart. And of course, I’ll just immortalize these fun moments through this blog. ^^

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Doki doki time. Excited to see my family after more than half a year!

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Had sisig for my first meal in Manila with my parents

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Watching shows with my niece, Riona

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Transformed my brother’s room to my mini working space.

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Chocnut time!

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Oh Happy Day With Kawaii PH Teammates + Thoughts About Influence

Hello everybody!

Good morning from Manila! 😉

Yesterday, I met up with my friends for the last time before I fly back to Japan this coming week. We spent the day talking about the most random topics ranging from horror stories, KPOP groups lololol, and some Kawaii PH-related work. Felt so energized after being with them! I feel like I can conquer the workload I will be facing in Japan soon, haha.

Before going to our meeting place, I asked my cousin to take some #ootd photos for me because it’s been a long time since I did so.

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But this little girl (a.k.a. my super cute & energetic niece Riona) was being so hyper the entire time.

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Here’s a candid shot of surprised Kaila receiving (stolen omg) handpicked flowers from our neighbor’s garden :))

I was in the middle of awkwardly posing outside the house when she ran towards my direction.

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Yay, emoji-inspired outfit!

Top from a tiangge (worth 200 PHP waaah) + Pink bow shorts from my SG trip with friends 5/6 yrs. ago + New Balance kicks

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She wanted to take my photos with my camera but of course, I’m a very strict aunt hahaha. So… no. :))

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Rio is only with us during the weekend. And she sure makes her presence felt in every corner of the house because she’s sooo ACTIVE hahaha

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Dream Realizations + Kawaii Halloween Party Preparations

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Being back in Manila for a short time has made me realize a lot of things. Actually, these thoughts aren’t exactly “realizations” but more of a confirmation about some ideas I have been thinking about during my idle time when I work or whenever I’d catch up with my friends who are also crazy dreamers.

Before moving to Japan, Manila was my comfort zone. As years pass by, Japan became a much more comfortable zone for me. In this place, I was able to achieve a lot of dreams because Japan served as a safe place for me to pursue what I want. Traffic, security, and other third world problems I used to have are not the problems that I’d encounter. Of course, living in Japan has its cons too. I figured that whether you’re in a highly-developed country or not.. you cannot escape any problem. It’s everywhere, hehe. Every country has its unique societal issue and it’s not right to compare two different worlds with different cultures and values. I think I learned how to be a chameleon over the years, haha.

Whenever I’d go back to Manila and I’m on my way home from the airport, I would be welcomed by these poor Filipino streetchildren knocking on the car’s windows while I’m completely engrossed on my iPhone. I cannot deny that there is a nagging feeling that I just can’t fully describe. Manila is still the same country that I left years ago.. (but with heavier traffic conditions… :/). Being able to live in Japan for years / travel in different countries really opened my eyes. How I wish Philippines would improve in some way or the other.

I feel that my Japan life is just a “preparation phase” for me that I must complete in a few years time. I feel like someday, I must go back here in the Philippines and try to change the game as an entrepreneur or a budding businesswoman. As of now, I can’t just go back anytime here because I still have a lot of work obligations left (Japan Lover Me Store and moreee) and if I want to save up money, Japan is the most “logical” option for me. Right now, I’ll just keep these confirmed realizations dear in my heart.

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Back Home For Nanay

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I haven’t told a lot of people about this.

I’ve been here in Manila for quite some time.

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This time, it’s not about a business trip or a long vacation like what I would usually do in the past.

It’s actually because a very dear family member is really sick at the moment. When I found out that her sickness was worsening, I impulsively booked a flight to Manila without much preparations. I think that I had mentioned it before that going home was not part of the plan this 2015 because I wanted to concentrate on the work projects we have for the entire year.. but if a special person / your family needs your companionship, how can you ignore the situation? *sniff* I will never forget the smile and look on her face when I “surprised” her with my presence and haggard self. It’s amazing that with just your mere presence, you can light up someone’s day.

Nanay. We all fondly call her as “Nanay” (which means “Mom” in English) and we treat her like our real grandmother. She is actually our family nanny and all of my siblings and I grew up under her loving care. She cooked for the entire family too. Everything that Nanay made before in her prime years… super delicious, for sure! Oh how I treasure those moments. ;u;

I’ve been here for the past 2-3 weeks already (got lost track of time) and I’ll be going back to Japan soon so that my other cousin can go home too while I take over & help my brother with our work. I can’t wait to book again a flight after saving up enough money in Japan. It really pains me and bothers me a lot that I cannot be here at home for a long time so I could take care of Nanay. 🙁 Honestly, it has been such a whirlwind of emotions recently and I’ve had a lot of sad moments. It’s okay to be not super okay at times, I guess. I am just praying a lot right now for her health. ;_;

Anyway..  I don’t want to finish this blog entry while having a sudden crying fest.. or continue to write about sad things. Yikes!

For now, here are some photos / moments that made me smile and happy during my stay here. : )

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Had a Jollibee date with Anne Kate after my surprise Cosmania visit.

Having a great day with a friend + meeting your kawaii family spontaneously = the best! I temporarily forgot my problems and fears that time.

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Went out the house to refresh. Bought books and read a lot to keep myself from thinking about sad things.

You really have to find and create yourself your own sunshine during a stormy phase / week.

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After Nanay’s hospital check-up, mom gave us a treat. Yay for simple joys such as this sundae from McDonald’s!

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My hyperactive niece Riona really cheered up everyone’s spirits!

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