My Life in Japan as Rainbowholic 🌈

Hi all!

After months of collecting clips for this requested video, here it is!

Watch the “A Day in My Life in Japan” video here.

Most people think that when they see my travel photos, perfectly-curated instagram feed (now inactive for an indefinite period), or have watched my videos is that “I have it easy”. A girl living in Japan making kawaii journaling process videos + blogging her life for a living? Wow! (spoiler: I don’t earn that much from youtube / here. Every content that I upload has a purpose & has the similar one why this blog exists.)

Sure, I’m living here in Japan, my dream country… but it doesn’t mean that I’m just always out there having fun creating content. Maybe happily struggling & thriving would be the better description? Haha!

Thinking about it, I am still in this uncomfortable phase where every penny is counted. I have to think of the bills to pay and to live within my means. Sometimes, I have familial responsibilities and I need to also help out. When I have extra, I always think, how can this blessing help me in the future? This is why I’ve chosen to invest & reinvest in the things that I’m most passionate about even though I know everything will take time. Time passes by & I know that in my heart, if I do my best, I’ll eventually reach this goal I have in mind & I’ll just laugh about the times when I struggle. I think that even if I reach my ultimate dream, there will still be struggles too. By that time, I hope that I’ve become stronger. I look forward to the day when I just share about my entire journey & hoping that it inspires someone out there, young or old. I can only share some stories here for the meantime, haha.

Since I am feeling a little bit pensive today, I just wanna share something.

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How I’ve Been + Why I Create 🌈

Hi everybody!

Last week, I’ve made a big decision which has been truly helpful so far.

Hmm… what could it be?? Lol ~

I’ve taken a break from most social media platforms.

This might not be a big deal to some people, but it is definitely a big one for me. If you’re someone who puts herself out there in the internet world, we cannot deny that social media really play a role especially if your work relies on it too (for commissioned posts / promotions / announcements).

To be honest, social media is like both a cure and a poison for me. Poison is a little bit strong of a word but you know what I mean, haha. Yes, it’s everyone’s cure for boredom. On the other hand, it can also be an unconscious addiction. It was becoming a latter for me to the point it was being unhealthy. Not that I feel insecure or compare myself to people I follow because I actually feel admiration towards them haha.. it’s more like I get sooooo distracted and I lose precious time! (Kaila, stop exploring hashtags! LOL)

If only I could have a duplicate Kaila who could update her ig often and not feeling stressed at the same time, lol. But let’s be real, I’m only one person. If you sent me a DM and I wasn’t able to reply, I really don’t check my unread inboxes because I just feel overwhelmed and not in a good way most of the time. If I feel relaxed at that time, I enjoy opening it. If not, it has this other effect.. huhu. #sorrynotsorry

My phone is so slow now and I’m actually happy about it because it prevents me from opening instagram / twitter apps. Not sure if I will be back (as of now, I don’t feel like going back) and I think that if people are really interested in me / the content that I do, they can just always access it through my blog or youtube. That’s how it was when I started blogging a decade ago.

Bloghopping was a huge thing, haha! I still do it now and I even search for blogs for inspiration. Not sure if it’s the same with everyone!

To add, I just wanna share some realizations lately. I’m really thankful that I’ve learned these!

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My Japanese Dream Timeline + How I Created My Own Luck 🤞

Hello everybody!

For today’s lengthy post, I will be sharing something very personal in detail. Not sure if this is oversharing already but if this blog post could help or encourage somebody out there, then I’d be so happy!

Last week, I received one of the best news I’ve had.

I have just been granted with a 5-year working visa here in Japan! I could not believe it at first! I silently prayed everyday ever since I handed my papers that it would be in the hands of a kind & generous immigration officer, lol! I remember meeting up with sensei (our visa counselor) and he told me that I might just get a 1 yr. visa (instead of my previous one, the 3 yr.) because my brother’s company was at a struggling / challenging stage at that time. My visa is sponsored under my brother’s company for almost 6 years.

When I got rewarded with this legal visa (ain’t fake news haha), I had many flashbacks. I literally cried  alone when I received the alien card (funny name lol)! Finally, all of my hard work these years are now paying off! I’ve been promoting Japanese culture for many years through my online activities and maybe this is Japan reciprocating my love for the country. Huhu, thank you universe!

Before I share my plans in the future, let me narrate in detail my humble beginnings.

Where I came from. What motivated me to never stop trying even if there were little chances for me. What fueled my drive to keep on keeping on.

So first.. let’s say hello to mini me, hehe!

I was born last 1991. The only girl, after 4 brothers. My mom used to sell life insurance. My dad worked (and still works) in the energy industry (Chemical Engineer).

We’re a big middle-class family.

I grew up with many people in the house. I was exposed to people from different walks of life. I played with our helper’s daughter (hi Nanay Rosie in heaven) and I would even eat at their house. My mom’s nanny when she was a kid also became my second mother as well (and a big source of moral support). I had many strong women to look up to when I was young. I saw my mom still working even after getting radiation therapy for her cancer. I witnessed my dad burning the midnight oil almost every day sending project proposals to different people / companies who would sadly… pay him even months after. I grew up witnessing my older brother in Japan (Kuya Eric) rebelling responsibly as he built his own path here in Japan without any financial support from anyone. I’ve lived almost all of my life struggling.. but now, I think that maybe “being challenged” is the better term.

At school, my classmates would call me as Catherine. I wasn’t the brightest. I was that C+ student who would have to study very hard just to pass. Sometimes, even with best effort.. I got mediocre results. But that didn’t stop me from wanting to improve. My English sucked a lot to the point that I would ask my brothers to correct my grammar for book reports. I wanted to improve so I tried blogging when I discovered the wonders of webpage design (through a friend’s introduction). I made my first Cardcaptor Sakura shrine website / fanlisting (lol) using Microsoft Paint. I passionately coded the website manually using notepad. I didn’t have a lot of equipment or resources, but I still felt blessed. I maximized whatever was given or gifted to me. My parents saw how I was so into computers so when I won a place in an interschool webpage design competition, they bought me a laptop (the brand was a locally-made one called “Neo”). My brother bought a second-hand wacom tablet from Japan and I used it for many years.

My preschool and highschool photos haha ~

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How To Overcome Your Uphill Battles (a.k.a. Surviving Your Downtime)

you can do it

This is Kaila’s how-to guide for overcoming your personal demons. May this also serve as a reminder for my future self who is bound to face more challenges in life. ^^

If you are currently facing your personal demons (or yourself is becoming a frenemie to yourself again), I hope that my 5 suggestions on how to rise up again will open up your mind. ^^

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1. Are you currently unhappy right now because you feel you’re not enough? Feel & analyze your feelings. Look at your problem from another perspective. Try to not listen too much from the worst critic (which can be the unhappy version of you). Imagine having a friend who is so negative and discouraging. Would you still like to listen to this friend? Be a nice friend to yourself too! We all deserve nice and positive friends! : )

Got rejected? Lost a work opportunity? Failed a test even if you’ve done your best? Well, there’s still good news! It’s not because you are lacking. It just means that maybe, some things are not meant for you this time or better yet, you have greater things in store for you coming your way! KEEP THE FAITH. Don’t let one failure to stop you just for that one time. Being rejected from something does not mean that you are not meant for something that we called “greatness”. Continue on working on your dreams and allow bumps / challenges here and there that pause you from time to time. Look at these as opportunities to learn, to improve, and to become a better person. I remember the time I failed for the first time in university. Looking back, I think that right now, I am very thankful for that “tiny bump”. I became an irregular student but I met more people (whom I wouldn’t be able to meet if I did not become an irregular student) and I got to get a better grade the second time around. No matter how cliche it sounds, everything does happen for a reason. You don’t have to dwell on your bump longer and hurt yourself more. If you make mistakes, it means that you are learning. The latter is only applicable if you are willing to accept to learn though. So do take the learnings! Those are gems! : )

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