How To Survive The First Stage of Adulting

Hi everyone!

Finally, here’s the blog entry I’ve promised before! I really miss writing reflective blog posts such as this. Hopefully, this will be useful to anyone out there who is currently struggling or confused about his / her path. ^^

Before I give some advice, let me share a bit of my personal struggles a year or so ago. I feel comfortable in sharing some of these because I’ve already overcome some. : )

YAY story time ~

I think that everyone will arrive at some point wherein he / she feels lost about his or her career path. More than a year or so ago, at our company (which is being run by my older brother Eric), I was given an insanely BIG task. I had to setup a successful and profitable online store for JapanLover.me (which is Japan Lover Me Store now). I had to find the formula from taking pictures, listing the items, promoting the products, taking care of our clients, generating sales, and so much more (of course, with my brother’s assistance). We were only THREE in the company that time (my bro, my cousin, and me) who were juggling all these jobs (physically) in Japan. I am very thankful of my teammates from Manila (Chichi and Kaye) because they really have been so HELPFUL right from the start regarding other responsibilities such as graphic design help and social media boosting. We couldn’t hire more people because we had to sell our first batch of souvenir jackets first before investing in more hands. From 50, it became 100 sukajan, then 500.. and now, it’s around 2500+ souvenir jackets. Eventually, we have become more financially capable to hire part-timers (hi Shinanoさん and Justin) and more people (hi Anne) in the company. To cut the story short, there were many times that I wanted to give up (add my self-diagnosed PMDD for more stress.. omg T_T.. )… and at the same time, I was being torn between doing this “day job” of mine (which was like my 24/7 job before haha) and pursuing my content creator dream / path which in the end, I am still fighting for even up to now.

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Life Lately & Thoughts + Revamped Rainbowholic Homepage 🌈

Hi all!

Been feeling a little more productive than usual. I don’t know what’s with me these days but I’m in a super ~content creation~ mode, lolol.

Before that and before I write down some current random thoughts.. let me just share some photos! :”) It ain’t a rainbowholic blog entry without a photospam first, haha ~

Got to design my wall filled with pretty sakura things!

A favorite corner in my room.

Washi tapes I’ve been using these days ~

My favorite washi covered spread from my ABC Daily Journal

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Kaila gives advice to a girl who is feeling hopeless

Hello everybody!

A few days ago, I received an email from a reader who is seeking for an advice from me. I thought that I should also share it here on my blog because I actually get a lot of messages with the same concerns about life / dreams / “how do I get out of this, I’m feeling unmotivated”…

I’m not sure if I’m the best person to answer this because I have to be honest, I’m still in the “struggling but be positive” phase. But of course, I’ll give it a try to give some helpful advice and tips! : )

Before we delve into that, let me share my favorite sakura photo. I’m not sure if these are cherry blossoms though, hehe! Still.. flowers.  :hug:

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Okay let’s start with her question!

(PS: I changed the real name of the person to Kawaii Girl hehe) ^^

Hi Kaila,

My nickname is Kawaii Girl and like you, I’m also a Filipina who is into kawaii and colorful stuff. I’ve been following (or stalking? xD) your wonderful blog for a while now and I saw a new light in Kawaii culture because of you. You see what I like reading about your blog most is the inspiring stories and empowering thoughts that you share with us readers. I feel encouraged to follow my dreams whenever I see you fulfil your goals one by one but the thing is.. for me right now.. I’m still not really sure what I really want to do with my life. I just quit a job that I never liked and I’ve been jobless for months now. Whenever I ask myself what is it that I wanted to do? I always become like this . . . I’m stuck. I’m a bit knowledgeable about image editing, and basic graphic creation stuff (I learned them coz I wanted to make anime wallpapers when I was younger) but not enough to pursue a career related to that. I know my interests lie in kawaii, anime, manga, games and other japanese-culture related stuff but I don’t know what is it that I can do now.. I’m grateful to have very supportive parents but being an only child, I can’t help but feel really guilty for not being able to give back to them.. :/ I’m turning 24 soon and I think I’m already having this quarter-life crisis. I believe I’m also undergoing depression for 3 years now (ever since I graduated) because I’m feeling so hopeless about my future..  If possible, could you give me and other people like me some advice about this kind of situation? I would really appreciate it even if you just create a blog post about this and even if you won’t directly answer to this email.. I hope you can spare some of your time to read this… I’ll be forever grateful if you do.. T^T

Thank you so much, and I will always support you and your future endeavours ^_^
– Kawaii Girl


Hello Kawaii Girl!

First of all, thank you for reading my blog! Readers like you inspire me more to continue sharing about my own learnings. ^^

If there is one quote that I would always tell myself during my “I can’t do this / I feel so hopeless” days.. it would be this:

I can accept failure, everyone fails at something. But I can’t accept not trying.

– Michael Jordan

If this would be comforting to know.. I just want to let you know that I have been in that position. And sometimes, I do feel like- “I’m stuck.”. For me, you don’t have to “figure everything out” by age of 24. It’s not a matter of age, but a matter of having the right perspective and acknowledging your own strengths (which can be honed) and weaknesses (which can be converted into a strength too!).

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How the Kawaii Philippines (community work) has helped me to become a better person

Hello everyone! Good evening!

I’m in the middle of doing kawaiifund.org work (which is launching very very soon, too!). As you may have known based from my posts through my social media accounts, my dear friend Ashley & I have finally launched “OurKawaii.Tokyo” already. I have soo many things to share about what really happened behind this website + book idea.. and how we made it happen. We still have bigger dreams about this and I’ll share it with you guys on my next posts. Please look forward to it! 🙂

Actually, I really feel tired now. I have a lot of pending shipments for both JLM Store and Rainbowholic Shop. The apartment and our office are still in a mess. If only I could hire someone here to help me, I would.. But I guess juggling everything and finding balance (sanity + work + enjoyment) are the challenges I should face first.

As I was doing Kawaii PH duties, I realized that I have changed a lot. The way I approach things, the way I think.. and how much this community work has changed me to become a better person. I actually teared a little when I read Mica’s testimony about kawaii and how our little community in the Philippines has given her that “push” / “boost”.

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And because I feel like listing again, here are my learnings during my journey as the team leader of Kawaii Philippines.

I don’t feel like being called as a “Kawaii PH founder” now, for some reason. I just think of myself as someone who was given a gift to gather people. And again, titles are just titles unless you give meaning to those.

I am no angel or saint. I swear too much and I am so unlady-like in so many ways and for this one, I will be in my true blue Kailaroo, lolol. The “Kaila Kardashian”, as some of my friends in real life would (fondly) call me lololol.


 The things I learned while working my butt off in Kawaii PH.

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1. It is NOT always about me, me and me. When I started to go out of my way and sacrifice a lot time for Kawaii PH, I learned to give a shit about the world, about these girls and women who just want to be confident in their own skin. People usually raise eyebrows whenever I tell them that yes, “Kawaii can change the world”. Who would have thought that kawaii can become a cause as well?

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