Spending the first day of 2019 by reflecting on the previous year.
2018 was the year when a lot of adulting things happened. The start was really rough and every month, there was some challenge that I had to overcome in my offline life. I am just so glad that I came out much mentally stronger than I’ve ever been.
2018 was the year when I finally became 100% self-sufficient and fully independent on my own. Coming home to my own (small and humble) Japanese apartment every time from my English teaching job was something that I used to dream about. That kind of simplicity already made me feel contented. I used to live with my cousin for a couple of years (before that, with my older brother) and to save money, we decided to just share the expenses. Come May 2018 (please refresh my memory if it was really May haha) when I had the opportunity to move to my dear friend’s place (he moved back to PH) and after all the paperwork that needed to be done, the apartment was now under mine. #AchievementUnlocked huhu
During the same period, I was granted with a 5-year working visa. I never thought I would be granted with such a long time but maybe the universe also felt that I deserved it. All the hard work paid off.
My mantra for 2018 was to “Take one day at a time” which I did. I was the type of person who would try to maximize her entire day that I would be upset if I didn’t finish a job that needed to be done (I was too hard on myself). I’m so glad that I learned how to become more gentle or kinder to myself when it comes to work.
7 years ago, my ultimate dream came true.
Photo by mumsh Abbey
I call it my cherry blossom dream. Thanks to my hardworking brother, I was able to start a new life as a Japanese language student here in Japan. I repaid his love by working with him in growing his company where I was able to do a wide scope of work from packing fragile Japanese antiques, to setting up an online store as the number one source of vintage souvenir jackets. It was a crazy type of additional schooling, lol. Still grateful for the craziness.
As I started my journey, I relaunched my passion for sharing creative content and blogging. I blogged about my simple life and fascination over kawaii culture. I met many people. I also said goodbye to many people. They also said goodbye to me. I moved on and eventually became ready to open new doors too. Experience is the best teacher as they say.
I went through a lot of phases. I had many achievements. I also had an equal share of setbacks. Yin and yang. I went through depression. That rock bottom served as my solid foundation that helped me find my purpose in life. I realized that I’m only alive for less than 10 decades, what the hell am I complaining about?
It’s been getting colder and colder here in Japan and autumn season is just around the corner. For some reason, I am feeling a little more pensive these days… hence, this wordy post.
I think it’s good for me to stop and reflect for a while because life has been pretty fast for me currently. I just finished my work today and I’m listening to some nature sounds outside (it rained today) and this feels like the perfect chance for me to sit down and type away my thoughts.
Sukajan from JLM STORE | Photo by Anne Pinero
I cannot believe that we are already approaching the end of the year and I am still at awe how I’ve managed to survive (still attempting to survive lol) this rocky year for personal growth. It’s not that kind of drastic change like I have turned into a completely new person… but more of realizing that I have improved a lot & getting rid of traits that I had to work on. I just wished for these before but now, everything feels natural to me. To summarize everything, I take care of myself more now compared to years ago.
To be more specific, here are some things that I have noticed that changed in me.
- I no longer feel the need or urgency to try the newest thing / visit the most talked-about cafe / *insert trending activity* here as soon as possible. I spend most of my free time at home and if I have extra money to unwind outside, then I would give myself some fresh air. In this way, I could save up more money for my business goal. I can also turn down offers / invites now during days I have to be “responsible” (lol).
Been feeling a little more productive than usual. I don’t know what’s with me these days but I’m in a super ~content creation~ mode, lolol.
Before that and before I write down some current random thoughts.. let me just share some photos! :”) It ain’t a rainbowholic blog entry without a photospam first, haha ~
Got to design my wall filled with pretty sakura things!
A favorite corner in my room.
Washi tapes I’ve been using these days ~
My favorite washi covered spread from my ABC Daily Journal