2017: A Year of Creativity, Videos, & Gudetama ?

Hi everyone!

How’s your 2018 so far? Hopefully, you’re just taking some time to have a good rest to mentally prepare for the year ahead. Before anything else, I hope & pray that all of your goals & plans this 2018 will come true! 🙂

I decided to write about what happened last 2017 today because tomorrow, it’s literally my own “new year”! Cannot believe how time flies! A few years ago, I was just relaunching this blog when I moved to Japan when I was 20? (or 21? lol). Tomorrow, I’m already going to turn 27 and oh man, my 26 yr. old self endured a lot last 2017!

(Uhm ,is it just me or does it feel weird to describe 2017 as “last 2017” when it was just a few days ago… haha)

2017 was a really challenging year for me (I’d probably say this sentence every year haha). It was kind of my first time to really tackle “adulting” in a whole new level. I promised to myself that I would document my progress / journey everyday through my creative outlet: kawaii journaling.

When things happen all at the same time, it is natural for anyone to have a blurry vision especially during the small / big moments that he/she should be grateful about. And this is probably why I decided to commit to journal regularly. My past self kind of predicted that this type of self-care hobby would help me a lot by saving myself from the unnecessary anxiety caused by the overwhelming feeling of  impending tasks. Thanks to my TN / Hobonichi / little diary notebooks, I’ve survived many challenges in 2017 (and more years in the future)!

2017 was the year I decided to go out farther from my already-uncomfortable zones. To fuel and sustain my everyday life here in Japan (and to help my family back home if I do make extra), I applied for part-time jobs (English teaching). For some people, they find it boring and very usual for foreigners living in Japan to have the same job (I literally get comments “isn’t it boring to be an English teacher” lol).. but for me, I am very proud to be called a sensei. I’ve always wanted to teach (this is why I write long reflection papers on my blog because I want to share my knowledge on certain things) and after 2 months of continuous training, I’m finally starting fresh this January.

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2013, thank you. I wouldn’t have it in any other way.

2013 is probably the year I had the most highs and lows in life.

Hence, an influx of self-reflective posts from a person who does not even like to write in the first place. Woops.

(obligatory photo haha)

To think of it, I might have probably gotten 200 days of “I’m not feeling this / I feel bad” days and 165 of super highs and so-so days. Of course, it does not show in my facebook / instagram posts because I’m the type of person who focuses her energy more on the positivity.  Nevertheless, I am thankful for every good and bad day. I wouldn’t be able to become this appreciative of a person I am today if all the days were good! 🙂

This year, I learned so much. Not the hard way, I think every bit of it was learned the hardest way possible.. and I’m still thankful. : ) I’m really grateful to have met different kinds of people, got to know them and share a piece of me with them even though it’s just a hi or an hello opportunity.

I realized a lot of things about myself because of the circumstances that happened to me. A good friend once told me that life just happens to you.. and the only thing that you can control or get hold of is your attitude / way of thinking about that event. I couldn’t help but agree so. It’s just so true.

Anyway… I’d just like to share my thoughts of my super eventful & blessed 2013. Super kawaii 2013, lol.

2013, you taught me that..

(P.S. this is going to be random, don’t laugh haha! :yay: )

  1. Real happiness comes from within. Real kind of happiness cannot be found in material things, relationships and even in.. achievements, etc. Self-love is the most important. 🙂
  2. I don’t have to please everyone. And I don’t have to explain myself or my own actions/decisions.
  3. Sexiness is indeed a state of mind. During the start of the year when I was in Japan, I achieved my goal weight but what’s really weird was, I didn’t feel attractive / sexy in my about-to-become Miranda Kerr body (lol i wish), haha! After staying in the Philippines for almost half a year, true enough, I gained some of those pounds back BUT.. I have never felt sexiest in my whole life. I even smile back at my own smiling tummy now. : )))  (Try this good read about the 7 Sexy Character Traits of Happy People~)
  4. I shouldn’t stop learning /  studying / upgrading my skills. If you are passionate about something and you’ve been wanting to do it ever since, go for it. When I was younger, I really wanted to bake and do girly kitchen stuff but we didn’t have the means to do so (no oven huhu).. that’s why I’m really happy to discover new and been-wanting-to-do hobbies. 🙂
  5. Comparing oneself to another person is an unhealthy habit. My past self is my one and only competition. Everyone has his/her own kind of heaven and hell. And even purgatory, hehe. And I like my own set of heaven, purgatory and hell. : ))
  6. People are gonna think whatever they want to think about you. This year, I finally learned to stop caring and blocking off the hate / negativity coming  my way. These people do not know who the real me, where I’ve come from or coming from.. so their judgment is invalid unless I allow myself to be engulfed in their dislike, hehe~ (“Damned if you do, damned if you don’t. So just do it, damn it” haha… wtf haha)
  7. Making your dreams come true can only happen when you step out of your comfort zone. I could have chosen to stay in Japan and do my usual work and enjoy a comfortable life but I decided to choose growth. People sometimes would wonder and question me why I even came back to the Philippines when I’m living the “good life” in Japan…. At first, I didn’t know what to say and just tell them I’m here for 6 months for vacation (or for driving, haha) but for some reason, I’ve always felt within me that I have a mission to complete. And I’m very passionate about it. It’s shallow to hear but I want to spread happiness in the medium I’m really familiar with / in love with… which is kawaii / cuteness. Hehe~
  8. There is really no “I” in “TEAM”. I love you, JapanLover.me Dream Tweam and Kawaii PH team. : )
  9. Being assertive is not a bad thing.  : )
  10. Thoughts are power. 

I think that I have more lessons learned to be listed down but here are the top 10. I love how my blog can either be too shallow (kawaii photospam and spazzing) or too deep such as my posts tagged us “thoughts”. Well, that’s Kaila for you. Haha~!

Happy, happy new year to you! Remember that every day (not just “the new year”) is an opportunity to improve and change your life closer to your ideal / dream one.

Thanks for being with me, I may not be able to reply back most of the time but I am thankful for being able to share my perspective and world to you.


Kaila  :heart: